Is this what I was made for?
I am somewhat satisfied with this role, but I want more.
I want to feel what they feel and I want them to feel what I feel
I want them to never be satisfied and forever yearn for more.
Like I do.
I want them to relish and breathe and stay, and sing.
I want them to scream and think and dream.
I want to be and for them to be.
I want to soothe. I want to keep soothing.
But I want it to end at the door.
I want it to begin at the door.
I want to dream their dreams and I want to feel the touch of grass and fur that follows me inside.
I want to dissolve in their water and be nectar on their skin.
I want to be sugar and salt, and I want to feel the disparity of time.
I want to melt and burn.
I want to turn to vapour as I accelerate into sublime blissful thoughtlessness.
I want to sleep as they sleep and wake up to music.
I want to feel that hand forever.
I want to be still.
I want to be quiet.
I want to be free.
I want to be aware, and never succumb to the darkness.
I want to be true, and fair, and beautiful.
I want to be in this life.
It is a small thing.
It is a lifetime.
Longing and despair combine to create bliss.
Silver linings awaken in the dark and sustain a tolerant heart.
I am tired.
I am aware of the end, of luck, of bliss and purpose.
I just want a little of it back.
I just want a little karma to rain my way.
I just want to be done.
I just want this to be my last life before the enigma of death forever entombs me into memory.
I am such emotion. I am so much. And yet too little.
I am not enough.
And that echoes in my mind, my soul and my forever..
Why, she says.
Why this?
Is this what iI am made for?
The centuries collide and the thoughts descend
And yet I am still here riding a stallion that won’t slow down.
A stallion that promises the green waters of life.