I am always growing. Even when I feel static, I am heading in
an upwards direction. Learning, changing, creating.
Sometimes the lessons are unexpected.
My whole life lesson seems quite unexpected. I have taken so
many detours, and sometimes my plans are completely off, and my lessons lie elsewhere.
I am closing yet another chapter.
I worked at a place that was like a kindergarten for me, where
dreams were born, but also ended.
I had wanted to be an Emergency Physician, and life decided to
throw me a choice. One I gladly took.
And maybe it cost my marriage, or maybe that needed to happen
anyway.
I needed to return and see this dream through.
What have I learnt?
I genuinely like my work.
But I like my life better. The fulfilment I feel from friendships,
relationships with my family and fur family are so much more valid and experience-full.
I cannot ever sacrifice that, and after all these years, it has
confirmed the choice I made: to sacrifice my training to become a good, dedicated
mother.
A job so fulfilling, that it keeps on giving.
The most important thing I have learnt about myself this year
is that my nurturing spirit is alive and well, and that is one of my greatest assets.
The most valuable rewards yesterday were the hugs from people who have appreciated
that spirit, and that has touched me. The patients who have benefited from my patience
and communication, and the staff who have
felt that depth.
I may not be the smartest, and I may not know as much as others,
but I have awareness and therein lies my special power.
As far as lessons go, not a bad one to learn.
I have also realised that the first step in gaining respect from
others is to give it to yourself and have pride in the knowledge and skills you
do have, and not devalue it because it comes with different letters
We all have strengths and weaknesses, and some are just much better at camouflage.
So I leave with just under a year of experience, but it feels like consolidation of 16 years of
living.
Putting a chapter to bed, tucking it in to rest. Done.
Free for the next challenge.
