Well, I know I have said this before, but I will say it again. Medical school was easy when you compare it to parenting.
Medicine is predictable and there are soooooo many books written about it.
Parenting is just you not trying to fuck up in the areas your parents did and try other things instead!!!!
I know that kids separating from you is a normal part of growing up, but nevertheless, it feels like a loss.
I used to be the main thing in their life. I used to show them the world. Now I just stand back while they explore it without me. It is a small death.

Never was meant to be easy, I know that. I just wish I was more equipped for it. I still feel like a child myself so often, I don't know who to turn to for help and support, and I don't know if the strategies I am using have any relevance at all. Their dad is flawed (aren't we all!!!!!) and  he is not helpful when it comes to development and normal. Because, hey, he thinks he's normal.
Am I making them into normal people? Am I hurting them? I hope not. This is my magna opus.